Most people who know me will know I profess not to like contesting. Most who know me well are aware that I also get very involved once actually preparing/competing in contests. Usually to the extent of ending up either getting a bit carried away, or rather despondent about prospects. Then, ending up with inflated view of the bands ability or, un-realistically dissappointed/ dissillusioned. I always, convince myself that "at this contest I will remain detached, just play to the best of my ability and not let the outcome affect me to much". But no, the contest disease takes over and my usual philosophy of "competitive" music being a misnomer, goes out of the window! On the other hand, I love the "event" side of things. Yesterday at Butlins it was great bumping into loads of friends. "Old" mates from former glory years, Dave Matthewman and Ray Laite, old banding colleagues/ good friends from Kippax, other mates I have made in recent times with YEP and other bands I visited earlier this year, and tMP mates such as Agent orange, RobHibberd, Shaggy (let him back please) and the lovely Mrs Bucket. Maybe the answer to my problem (or the cure to my disease) would be to pack it in and just become an occasional follower, for the social side? But then how do I satisfy all my musical needs? I think I need therapy,anyone out there with any answers to my problem?